In the Brain
I've finally succumbed to try journaling thoughts here. It's always felt corny, but I find myself browsing more and more of people deciding to write the same way. It seems like it does some users good to upload their thoughts. I'm not the most passionate about writing anything down. I almost wonder if this is the outlet I need to be able to cope with destructive, intrusive, obesessive, and downright stupid thoughts. Nobody in my real life knows this website and its contents exist. I desperately need to find a way to be myself without secluding to only my mind.
Instead, I would rather say nothing.
Talk about taking the "What's on your mind?" literally. It feels like there will be no judgement. Which is such a weird thing to say, it's literally your own thoughts.
I'm finding out about myself more and more internally, and that I have unprocessed feelings about a lot of things. Things mostly pertaining to the concept of nostalgia and change. I have a hard time with that. If I could go back in time, I absolutely would. The question is to find out why I feel 2004 was somehow better than the years to come.
I am an angry person. I have never seen the class as "half full". I have minimal patience and sometimes it feels hard to empathise with others, but only sometimes. I'm sure I have other problematic feelings, but at the moment life hasn't felt as difficult as it was a few months ago (thanks Lexapro!).